Respects

I am on my way to California this weekend to pay my respects to a deceased relative. I am escorting my mom on the flights. Its going to be a very odd trip for me. There will be many family members I don't remember except I have heard their name constantly over the years. I admit I have exiled myself from my extended family for the last twenty years as a way of dealing with my head injury.

Hard to say if I will react positively to this influx or not. I have dismissed several other, dare I say important passings in my family, the last two decades so it was even a shock to me when I voiced an opinion to go. Perhaps my own vulnerability from my last Ironman has finally shocked me into understanding true loss beyond my own selfishness.

Well it will make for an interesting story the next time I post.